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[09 Apr 2008|08:31pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

I am alive. I am well.  I am slightly stressed from schooooooool. But I have been getting lots and lots of good music.

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[15 Mar 2007|01:41pm]
[ mood | lethargic ]

the reality of being a senior hits me on days like this. where i stay home to work on papers. and surf the web. i am such an acheiver.


i am really sore. rugby is great. and it hurts.

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ever the same. [05 Jun 2006|08:23pm]
[ mood | fucking sad. ]

you aren't who you used to be. and i wish you would realize i really loved who you were. really.

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cruuuunk. [21 Aug 2005|01:35am]
suzy and i are drunk of bad rum straight from sint maarten. evil rum that makes us have to pee and not be able to walk up the stairs.

evil rum.

we almost got caught, but my dad is one chill man and was like... "see no evil, speak no evil" and so i'm guessing my mother was not informed because i would be in military school by now (yes, in only 20 minutes.)
2 drunken girls sedated

[28 Jul 2005|11:53pm]
[ mood | content ]

there's no where else i wanted to be than being there when you needed me.





i love the wallflowers.
i love my "gurl"friends
i love my boyfriend
i love my really strange guy friends
i love warm weather
i love the color of healthy grass
i love smiling and knowing the right path was laid out for me by the ones i love.
i love watching my cat run into walls.
i love making up stupid nicknames.
i love the sims 2 University
i love reading under the covers with a flashlight
i love being lead to my bed by a boy who only intends to kiss my forehead and tuck me in.
i love my boyfriend's family.
i love brownie batter.
i love brownie batter ice cream by ben & jerry's.
i love barns turned into party spots and venues for local bands by simply stringing up christmas lights and putting up random colored spotlights.
i love bondfires and the idiots who stand too close to them.
i love testdriving cars.
i love what will soon be my car.


i've got love for good things in life and i don't want to think about the things i don't have love for.

1 drunken girl sedated

finals can suck it. [05 Jun 2005|08:46pm]
[ mood | nostalgic ]

so it was a tent party without the tent due to inclimate weather. but it was still lots of fun. we went to eat as usual... we watched seven and laughed when it was supposed to be serious. it was a good night.


friday night we were attempting to see a movie, but that didn't work out because in our town, it starts to rain and everyone flocks to the fucking theaters. eh. but then alana and i had THE BEST COTTON CANDY ICE CREAM EVER. from maggie moo's. the cow i purchased there is still nameless but it's all good.


travis has to go to stupid germany soon. i mean, i'm all for culture. but culture for three weeks separating the two of us just is out of the question. it will be a challenge. i will most likely go insane. but when he comes home.... we'll somehow make up for lost time. he really does make everything great.


other than that, finals fucking suck as usual, even more because of mrs brown's inability to teach anything at all. it's bullshit. but oh well.

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i am certain now.. [06 May 2005|07:02pm]
[ mood | worried ]

i just really hope this all lasts. because i swear, i'd cry if it didn't. and i haven't cried about that sort of thing in a while.

being with you here, makes me sane. I fear I'll go crazy if you leave my side.

i hope you don't leave.

2 drunken girls sedated

you might wanna sing [20 Mar 2005|09:00pm]
[ mood | full ]

this weekend ruled. friday night was fucking off the hook, because we drove around with alana, freaking her out and getting her lost in the depths of chester springs/ eagle. then we went back to suz's and played friends trivia until momsen and travis came later, when we kept playing it, which got pretty interesting. then eventually i got home.

then i woke up, drove the car (!!!!) with my mom over to trav's where i was supposed to have trainspotting but i left the disc at home. Lindsay was there, i guess chilling with momsen. then we went out to dinner with the whole Lee family. Then we were supposed to have bowling, but due to "ghetto" kids (as ghetto as you can get in downingtown) getting their grind on, we had a whole age crisis, what with Tomas being 18. So ryan invited everyone to trav's house (hahaha ahhh gotta love ryan) so then we went back and partied, hot tubbed it and what not.

i found myself in the hottub with the most random group ever. Rob, Ryan, Tomas, Travis (not complaining there) and me. with lindsays sound effects coming from the background... her jumping on the trampoline and screaming like a little kid. some of the good weekend quotes came from that hot tub. let's recap.

- "Sometimes, I like to empty out a bottle of ginger ale, refill it with bourbon, and do my homework with it."

- Ryan:  "Rob, man, you gotta come up for air, you can't just lay in the hottub without breathing. man i just saved your life!!"

  Rob: "yeah, right man, i totally forgot"

- Tomas: "Wet Tee Shirt Contest!!!"

- Tomas: "I feel like I'm on baywatch."

- Ryan: "stop staring at my nipples."

- Travis: ".... No, for the last time, i refuse to stuff my girlfriend in the trunk of my car"

- Ryan: " I just called everyone and told them party at your place, man i even called my GRANDMOM!"

- Ryan: "shannon, can you maybe leave the room? i just got naked."

- Travis (see above comment) " But I can stay.... right?"

 

1 drunken girl sedated

[15 Mar 2005|07:40pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

I've got this word. permanent marker. on my hand. it's wiping away slightly from all the wear of a day in school, but it really shouldn't be there at all. Apparently the word describes me and i deserve the title, but i swear i don't. but the feeling i have around you, that word can apply.

 

In the past year, my life has changed so much. I think it was the 18th, but i can't remember, but one relationship ended. From that period until may 17th, all i really distinctly remember is lacrosse, rain, running in the rain, listening to "My Favorite Accident" alot, and loving my friends.

May 17th, a new, better relationship. I had an awesome summer. Filled with running, swimming, warmth, love, friends, and just hanging out and doing stupid things that still stick in my memory as the best times of the summer.

 But I guess it was pretty hard to realize some things don't last forever, some feelings don't last forever, and I had to be fair.  I guess that's when i decided I can't really trust myself in relationship situations, and nothing can get too serious too fast or else i hurt someone. and i really wish in this case i didn't hurt someone. he never deserved that.

 Then there was the whole string of things that never worked out for various reasons (fault all upon me). I had a great 16th birthday to follow another fall i've survived just fine. I had christmas, then i went to disneyworld, and it was warm, and happy, and i like that memory. New Years kicked some major ass, no matter all the mixed signals that led from it. Valentine's had that whole shiny, new feeling. It was lacking the "oh god, i'm in love with a boy that quite possibly could have cheated on me with my 'best friend'" feeling. It was perfect.  St.Patricks day on thursday, and on Friday, (March 18, 2005)  I will have survived it all. And it only gets better from here on out.

 

and now there's you. and only the timing and you can take that tattooed title this time.

 

 

[perfect]

 

 

pee ess.... vote for messina and hoffman :)

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love is like a role that we play [14 Mar 2005|10:11pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

mmm  <3 i love my people

pee ess.... so i take a test in math.. i do kinda shitty... i go through and do all my unit work to make the notebook complete... and i do it all perfectly. fucking... asldfhasldkjflkasdhflkjads.

moral of the story : i need to learn to do my homework on time.

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valentine? [16 Feb 2005|09:28pm]
[ mood | naughty ]

so i guess my valentines day was a really good one. really different from every other year.


today, he spent a whole hour in the library with me, making fun of books we found in the back part of the fiction aisle.... when he could have gone home instead. it going so well.... it's unnerving.




my mom admitted today that she liked the mix i made, even though she only had ever even heard one of the songs. ("this years love"- david gray) i love that song so much... and it reminds me of the cute part in the girl next door.


you don't dream for me no, don't dream for me.

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all the things she said... [08 Feb 2005|10:33pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

you've turned me on, angel we are so gone


my meditation class is the greatest thing in the whole world. it really is. and i just found a mix i made in the summer before 8th grade. it's the best mix ever made by a seventh grader. all the songs on it are really nostalgic.




there's this other thing, going pretty damn well right now. who knows what will happen though. maybe something good. we can only hope



pee ess... does anyone remember that hot ass video for the song "all the things she said" by tatu?... i've been listening to that song for three days straight.

2 drunken girls sedated

[30 Jan 2005|05:24pm]
[ mood | giggly ]

hahaha my history group project is soooo bad. me nicole and dave worked on it in my basement... and we pretty much all just sat there laughing because it was so horrible. and everything will be blamed on kenny.


" KENNY!!!!..... shannon... take back what you said about nicoles colony... look at the parthenon you just drew." - dave





at least we can say we tried.

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damage control [18 Jan 2005|08:24pm]
[ mood | curious ]

mmm i love food poisoning. me and johnson got it from the bread we had last night. hot damn. but it's okay. because.. well actually no.. it just sucks entirely. i don't think i missed anything important but still.



they are calling for snow<3 on late saturday/early sunday. yes! can we say hot tubbing it at j-man's? somewhere in east side marios... there are little blocks that say "tay tay is black" "shannon" "nizzle" "mike" and "mecca". and mr johnson was trying to write on the wall too until he realized how immature it looked for a grown man like himself to be jumping to reach an empty spot towards the ceiling.



"You can get convinced,that we can get convinced. But either way the truth is bound to get twisted. You can't take a break when the pain of the world is weighing on your next decision"



one spot on my back keeps itching.and it isnt a bugbite.


the heat has just kicked off in my room. oh my god. its the coldest room in the house with the heat on... i dont wanna think about how miserable i'm going to be tomorrow morning while pulling on my clothes as fast as possible.


i'm gonna fucking hibernate.


( i die trying just to keep myself from kissing you )

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green eyes... green eyes. [17 Jan 2005|08:11pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]

xXx I hope you're happy now that you've found a place to settle down xXx

this weekend was really good. relaxing/emotional/fun/significant.  i did some good crying, got it all out of my system, and right now i only wanna focus on happiness... trying in school... and being a good friend.  i woke up on saturday... and went to lunch with alana and helga while alana was on her lunch break. then i ran some errands with helga and we picked up some flowers for sunday's tea party.

then on saturday night... for no reason at all... we had a buddy chat. and i talked to alot of people, and i feel more caught up with everything. the tea party rocked. because everyone looked so damn pretty. i'll have to get to uploading my pics. then alana and i went to see In good company.... and it was good and all... but i think i was gonna cry at the end because nothing wound up in a neat little package. but it was chill anyways. and alana and i were rocking fucking hot eye makeup.... and i usually hate dramatic eyeliner.. but this shit was hottttt.

then today i woke up.. came home and was alone for awhile while the rents were finishing up at jeff's funeral.. got a new cancer awareness band... it's gray. he was a good guy. alot of people showed up. 50 cars.  my dad is sad.. i can tell.

i took a bath, and after a short nap went to johnsons. then we went to the mall and had dinner at east side marios. all in all... this weekend was good.

now let's hope this week goes by fast..... because i dont wanna lose my mind again

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drug-like [06 Jan 2005|06:12pm]
[ mood | recumbent ]

2nd bomb threat of the fucking week at school. it's getting really annoying, because it's always cold when they call them in. and of course, they don't warn us students... but they warn gym teachers.

anyways, i froze my ass off and then i had a whole 30 seconds to think to myself while i booked it to class after the bell had rang, and i swear i will never ever ever be on time for english class.

and then i took my chem test after school, and i had soooo much time because mr. davidson was coaching, and he just left me with it, and that was freaking wierd. but i think i did alright, because all my redox equations were balanced. in their own fucked up way. actually only the last one looked fucked up.

Tonight is a new o.c. helllll yes. something tells me it won't be as dramatic as the "chrismakkuh fiasco"

 

so lately we've been talking so much about our river country memories, it's definitely going to be a tradition, because i had so much fun, and i just laugh thinking about us. floating along... with inquisitve questions and a candy supply worth $45 from the hot dog man. god. i can't wait for summer again.

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"viva la revolucion" [02 Jan 2005|09:40pm]
[ mood | loved ]

hmm new years kicked some supreme ass. i'll post pictures later. my god, it was all so fucking funny.

i got this big cut on my toe when i stepped in broken glass, and i bled all over people so i feel bad.

i feel like making cards for people to let them know how appreciated they are. i think i will do that. it will be the great project of the evening.

tomorrow i totally get my braces off. what now bitch?!?!? and i prolly won't have to go into class, because i rule like that.. and i have an appointment at 10:30 and my mommy said i can sleep in.

in comparison with last year, this new years rocked. last year, alana and i sat on the steps of a family friend's house, saying how we hated the holiday and we needed to celebrate it in order to actually call it a holiday. and this year we did. the crew there was : Zoe, Suzy, Johnson, Timmy, Alana and me. then we had a big sleepover. it would have been cooler if tim could have stayed, but it's all good. we all rolled around on each other. quote of the night.....

(Zoe- "johnson, get out of our bed, this is not a three person bed, it's a full bed for two people")

Johnson: You're mom's a full bed

my god. i love those kids... the ones who chase after me when i stupidly run up to the roof to dance in the open air.. while i was a wee bit intoxicated.

then later.. everyone crawled up on the roof.. and we laid under a blanket and stared at the stars. and it was so pretty out. it was a feel good moment.

mmkay, i gotta get to making these cards, and deciding what to wear tomorrow. kthnxbye. <3

1 drunken girl sedated

[22 Dec 2004|10:40pm]
[ mood | why dont they have devastated? ]

WHAT THE FUCK?!
















yeah. um. stoicism for me thank you.

love can't possibly be real.

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[01 Dec 2004|09:02pm]
[ mood | creative ]

you're an lj addict if...Collapse )

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[29 Nov 2004|08:37pm]
[ mood | nervous ]

gummy bears from another's hands, kisses from someone else's warm and alive mouth.


















this could be bad.Mcr

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